Just a brief moment is all it took, completely unaware I was to just about to experience a totally life changing experience most people refer to as ‘near death’. In my opinion I did die but when this happens to the unsuspecting you certainly are not issued with an instruction manual, just an incredible experience and profound memories that in most cases may change your life.
Waking up that day, I felt quite well and had no idea of the events about to occur. Fortunately, a decision to make a visit to my family is what I believed helped to save my life; otherwise I may not be here today to tell you my story.
Later that morning, I recall starting to feel tired and nauseous with significant pains throughout my body especially around my chest. A loud ringing sound and hazy vision were the only two senses I had before sudden darkness hit and I passed out; my near death experience had just begun.
I was in total darkness, totally confused with the events and my surroundings; I wasn’t scared I was too busy trying to work out what next. I did notice other small illuminations of light at a far distance perhaps they were other souls experiencing a similar situation to mine. Now, I was no longer suffering any physical pain and there was no feeling of gravity, I had an exaggerated sense of freedom.
Without notice I started to travel at incredible speeds so fast that light started to stretch and bend through various levels similar to a rainbow yet there were hundreds of variations of each colour. As I passed through these spectrums of colour, I actually experienced what each colour was felt like. In the far distance a brilliant white, blue light was becoming brighter, it seemed as I was traveling towards it till I eventually entered the light, Suddenly I stopped the sense of travel and movement had disappeared.
I felt that I had arrived at a destination but I was unsure of why and what this place was. At this stage I started to feel that something significant was happening to me and I was no longer was in my body. I had noticed a thin silver, blue cord from my being stretching as far as the eye could see .Looking around me I noticed a field with long grass that I could see through, river streams with glowing water, flowers that represented trumpets, mountains and a tall tree the largest I have ever seen. An incredible white light was all around me but I could not find its source, it seemed that the light came from all around me and all the objects I could see, I looked down and noticed that I had no feet and was floating above the ground. Without the sense of gravity or pain I was in a total sense of freedom and bliss. A flower that resembled a trumpet caught my attention as the petals had a translucent see-through glow of various colours that resembled red, blue and green. I felt an incredible sense of peace and as one with my surroundings I wasn’t observing this picture I was part of it, almost like a sense of déjà vuI. A strange feeling come over me similar to arriving back home after a long trip and you can finally take your shoes of sit and relax on the lounge.
Without notice I felt a voice say “you are not meant to be here yet” I didn’t hear it, I felt it, like a voiceless voice. This voice came from within me but was separate from my conscious thinking. I was spooked by this feeling like a small child being caught with his hand in the cookie jar for the first time I panicked and started to travel back to my body, this time the travel seemed much shorter and woke up inside my body. People around me were shouting instructions from emergency operators on the phone and relaying information on their arrival “ first ambulance is now 6 minutes to your location” I heard my family members shout . The pain I was suffering was indescribable, I couldn’t breathe gasping for air, yet I only stayed for a brief moment in my body before I commenced on my out of body journey again.
I arrived once again back in the same field but this time the journey seemed faster, upon my arrival I asked if “could I stay for a while?” I didn’t say my request out load I simply thought it, I hadn’t even finished asking before I sensed it was OK to do so; the response came in a form of a smile, but I felt it. Like the way someone special makes you feel when they smile at you. With permission granted to stay, I began to explore my surroundings. I started to realise that this was my home and I didn’t want to return to my body, there was no need I was totally happy where I was. I felt the presence of two energies in front of me; none had a shape that could be described. It was like meeting an old friend and words were not needed. The feeling of happiness and being safe was overpowering, it was so comforting being in their presence. A conversation started between the three of us, but not a single word was spoken. I realised that they were my spirit guides that have been with me many times before and had just taken the opportunity to drop in and say hello.
They sensed that I didn’t want to return, I was having too much fun after all I had been away for some time and it was nice to be home. Despite this, I knew I couldn’t stay, like a contract I had agreed to sometime before that no matter what I had to fill. Before I started on my journey back something remarkable happened, no doubt enticed by my surroundings and my discovery of some old friends. I had just realized that I was in a spirit form part of a greater consciousness. It was like an awakening or an understanding, possibly like a computer program ready to start and someone just pushed enter. I realised that I was in some kind of spirit form, free of the limitations that I always thought I had. The sense of feeling part of the whole, that all of us are linked we are all part of one consciousness that never dies we just simply change form experiencing many different situations. Like a giant jigsaw puzzle, we are all trying to work out were we fit in, recreating ourselves based on who and what we think we are; understanding that we all contribute to the overall picture called ‘life’. I finally realised that all of my actions in life are not judged by a greater source, but viewed by me based on how and what actions I make towards myself and others. The most incredible thing of all was understanding that all this information was with me all the time, I just needed a Jolt. We can communicate with spirit, it’s easy they are always there, they never leave, and the challenge is to remember we can.
I remember the words “it’s time for you to go back” as they gently picked me up and returned me to my body, ever so gently. Awakening suddenly and taking my first breath in nearly 11 minutes with Paramedics monitoring my progress I was rushed to hospital. I did manage to pass out several times in the ambulance on the way to hospital this time I didn’t leave my body, after all twice in one day was enough. After several days I was finally diagnosed with Toxic Shock Syndrome due to ingested bacteria called Streptococci. Many people that suffer toxic shock to the level that I did don’t recover, in fact over 83% are recorded as a fatality or at best suffer from long term health disorders. After several months of rigid testing I was lucky enough to walk away with my health as normal plus one incredible experience that changed my life. I remember one week before my event I was continuously asking for guidance and seeking an understanding for my life’s path, I certainly didn’t expect that I would have such a profound experience to get the answer!
I don’t believe that the place I visited was my final destination in the spirit world or possible a place that some might call heaven, but just a temporary stopping place, may be similar to a road house in the spirit world, a place to freshen up before continuing on your journey. In my case it was possibly an awakening zone, somewhere that reminded me of who and what we all are, incredible spirit beings having a human experience.